バナナフィッシュにはもってこいの日

J.D.サリンジャー、彼はまだ生きているの？

サリンジャーの本は思春期に読むべきか、逆に読まないべきか。
ジョン･レノンを撃った男のポケットには　彼の小説　ライ麦･･･があったというし。
感化され易い思春期に純粋すぎる小説は危険です。

年をとると少しづついい加減になって、人の欠点を許しやすくなる（自分のも？）
割り切れないことも多いし。

こんなタイトルをつけようとした私の状態、思春期に近かったかも。
以前は会社で腹が立つことも多く、その負のストレスを英語のブログで発散していた
気がするけど、職場を変えてからすっかり不満がなくなってしまった私は、
何かを訴えたいという気持ちが弱くなってしまったみたいです。

それは私にとってはいいことだと思う。
だから、
勝手ながら、
このブログを閉じたいと思う。
見に来てくださった方、本当にありがとう。

前にときどき読んでくれたランスもアメリカに帰ってしまったし。
そう、彼は、私がイーオンに入ったときに居た先生。
季節が変わったことを感じます。
このブログ立ち上げて、って言った人、誰よ？

英語のブログはまた別のところで続けます。
これからは、もうちょっと気楽に行こう！

ではまた。

Blue Moon

I had watched TV drama "Moonlighting" when I was a junior high school student.
Bruce Willis and Cybill Shepherd played the leading part. In this story, they manage a private detective agency. The name of agency is "Blue Moon" and in the drama, Cybill sang "Blue Moon" that was a jazz standard song. The drama was dubbed in Japanese, so I didn't know her real voice. When I listened to her song, I realized she has husky and
deep voice. I thought she was so nice.

I learned an idiom "once in a blue moon" in the class yesterday. It means very rarely, once in a very long time. We can see the moon looks blue because of dusts in the air but we have rarely seen such a sight. And my electric dictionary says "Blue Moon" is also the second full moon in a month. That's why "Blue Moon" is a metaphor of a thing rarely seen.

I went a shoes shop to pick my pair of low-heeled pumps up yesterday. I got it repaired. I really like the pumps made of deep blue leather. I was so glad because their heels could be renewed at a low cost.
Blue is the color of my peace of mind.

Confession

Can I be honest? I must be allowed. This website is mine, isn't it? I don't know who reads my journals. And I don't care people who don't express that they're reading.

It's difficult to behave like an adult. Sometimes behaving like an adult causes confused situation. When I have to get along with a person whom I cannot understand, or when I have tried to like a person but the person never realizes my effort and irritation. Moreover, when I know the person is friendly to me, even though I gave the idea up as hopeless, I'm confused. I think that I've only behaved like an adult and I was exhausted to try to like you. Can you understand?

When I learn something, I always want to see not only the teacher's technicality but also the personality. I want to like the teacher as a person. If I can find good points that I can admire, it'll make studying much easier for me. And I think people who teach something have to try to be liked. Talents and professionalism are not only the skill and knowledge about the profession. I don't want to pay for the misunderstanding that is rude, not intellectual and insolence. The money is what I earned as a result of efforts to improve myself professionally.

There're words and phrases.
He doesn't look like but his true nature is good.
She say everything what she's thinking, because she's innocent.
I don't like these ideas that a person hides his/her real nature and I don't have to believe what he/she shows. Is how we show an important part of our real nature? The presentation that is easy to understand is kindness.

What should I think when a person behaves rudely, awfully, or says something too negative? Does the person want to be frankly? When the person is in personal contact with me, I can understand. But in business relationship, it's impossible.
If the person thinks that he/she is so attractive that people won't care about the faults, it's his/her misunderstanding. I'm confused again. By any chance, does he/she want to be disliked by me? I don't want to dislike a person whom I meet and talk to. And I also don't want to be confused.

At least, I know that I was released from this suffering now. She must be lucky because she could leave before I exploded.

New Year begins.

Sad to say, my winter vacation is going to end. I went to a gym to make my body wake up. The gym is managed by the city where I live in. The fee is very low for the citizens of Hadano. And the gym doesn't charge people who don't live in this city a lot for use of it.
The building of the gym is new and cool. It takes only 10 minutes from my house.
The gym is just what I needed.

Some friends of mine tried to run a marathon last year. I admire them but I will never try it. It's difficult to understand for me why marathon is fun. But watching Ekiden race on TV, I thought I might feel good if I could run long distance.

A sweat did me good. After two hours excise, I became hungry and I got back home.
Fortunately, or unfortunately, the lunch is more gorgeous than usual because friends of my parents came. In these cases, I and my sister had to do our duty. We made cheese cake. I got the recipe from a friend of mine. It's really good recipe. The recipe for making this cake is easy and doesn't take a long time. We don't need special ingredients. And of course, the taste of it is so good.
I'm sure the calory that I took today is much higher than I used up calories in the gym.

At Starbucks

It has been two month since I went a Starbucks last. I told first to my senior co-worker that I wanted to quit in Starbucks near the previous office at the end of last September.
After that I had been busy to finish my job and hadn't had a time to go to a Starbucks.
I' having a light lunch in Starbucks now.

I can see a net-café across the street from here. I once stayed there all night when I missed the last train and couldn' come back home. I feel it was long time ago.
This Starbucks is a tenant in the first floor of this building. The architect office where my best friend from university works in designed this building and the gym that is one of the tenants of this building. During the construction, we couldn' enjoy a very good time in Starbucks here in Honatsugi. Due to this building, the scenery of this place little changed. Off course it' a change for the better. I really think that BGM and furniture of Starbucks are so nice. I know the prices are high but it has worth.


In this morning, I knew that a teacher in EAON would quit. I was really surprised. She is only a person who worked there when I entered the school. I cannot understand why she quits. She told me that she didn't want to quit. But anyway, it was decided and she's leaving. We should wish her success in the future.

Everything is changing and me too. Once I felt jealousy toward people who can change something. I was irritated because I thought I couldn't change the situation around me. But now I know I can change the course of my life. I will never envy people leaving to create their future.

My new supervisor is smart and polite. New co-workers are kind and interesting. And the company never orders me to wear uniform for woman. They employed me as an engineer. I can enjoy working. I'm so lucky.

It was great year, wasn't it? My wild boar run this year through.

Bali（2）

Travel is one of the necessaries of life like food for me. Travel is best way to relax and renew my sprits and purpose. Bali was kind to me.
Before I went to Bali, I had thought people took a vacation to continue working. But now I think people work to take a vacation. As you know, Japanese are workaholic people and probably I'm one of them.

I arrived at the airport at midnight and was sleepy. I wanted to go to the hotel and sleep as soon as possible. But the airport in Bali strengthened immigration controls because of the terrorism in 2002. It took about one hour to enter the country.
Next morning I woke up by twittering of birds. I could listen to various birdsongs which I have never listened before even when I was in the room. There were many kinds of trees and flowers in the hotel garden. I enjoyed bird watching from the balcony of the room I stayed. And I also saw squirrels on an aisle in the garden.

And the hotel faced the ocean. It doesn't have the private beach but the beach in front of the hotel was like the private beach. I sometimes went for a walk on the beach and I also could take a nap sitting a chair in the hotel garden. We had to pay for a chair with parasol on the beach but the chairs in the hotel were free and safe. I realized the customer of the hotel should make use of them.
The hotel has 2 pools. There was a building made of stone in the hotel and its roof was a pool. I watched people on the poolside. They sometimes swam but they stretched themselves out on the beach chairs for the most of their time. I decided to imitate.
Then I swam for a short time, I was reading a book on the poolside. The breeze was cool. I always wonder. why do I become hungry by reading a book? When I was going to the hotel bar to have a light lunch, a clerk of the hotel came to me and asked me. "May I take your order?" The timing was perfect. After I ate up the fruit juice and the hamburger which was Australian size, I fell asleep.
When I wake up, I could understand what I was doing and where I was. In three seconds I noticed I was in southern island and I had to check out in an hour!
We can enjoy life like a human being in a vacation. So I think people should work to take a vacation. Well, I will start to work to earn money for my next vacation.

Bali

Yeah!!! I spend my vacation now. If you ask me what date today is, I cannot answer.
Sometimes I go to beach in Odawara and read books in daytime. When I decide to go back home is when I see the sun is sinking and feel cold. I don't need a watch now.

And I plan a trip to Bali. First I was going to Hawaii. But when I looked at traveler's guide, the hotels in Hawaii were tall buildings, I was disappointed. Then I decided to go to islands in Okinawa. There are a few hotels in each island. It seemed that I don't need to see many people. I really want to go to places where there are not big buildings and quiet. And I want to add mileage point of JAL.
In domestic travel, best way to add the mileage point is going to Okinawa and Hokkaido, because they are far. I dreamed that I was riding a cart pulling by a cow.
But I was confused when I realized that a travel to Bali is cheaper than a travel to Okinawa. And in case of domestic travel, we have to apply for my flight and accommodation 10 days before the first day of the travel. That’s why I can start my trip to Bali earlier than a trip to Okinawa. I was shocked.
The determinant in choosing which place I should go to was the hotel. Though both travels are JAL package tours, the hotels in Bali seem more beautiful, comfortable and exotic than ones in Okinawa.

It must be a good chance to forget previous stuff. Since almost all of the words that clients or business partners said to me were kind and warm, it's too difficult to forget them. But to enter a new phase, once I should forget them. I know.
Most difficult and most important thing in a job-change is how to separate from previous stuff. Some of previous stuff seemed to try to keep me from leaving. Or Do I want to think so? If so, that's another story. Whether it is true or not, I have to leave.

I hope beautiful Bali warmly welcome me and make me relax.