August

As a matter of course, unstable July came after serious decision in June.
In June, I couldn't see the sun and I was apt to be sunk in thought. When July came, I got used to the bad weather of rainy season and stopped to be sunk in thought. And the rainy season ended and good weather encouraged me.
I would do into action and had two job interviews. July flied away. Probably I was busy but I can't remember how it was.

When I saw fireworks on the roof garden with my friends last Saturday, I realized that I was in summer now. Someone said that fireworks events told us the end of summer and after fireworks events fall would come soon.
Wait. Don't hurry up. I haven't enjoyed this season yet.

When I stand on the construction site, the heat is killing me. There isn't any shadow because nothing haven't been built yet there. I always think about reality in construction site. It is famous words in a Japanese movie that an accident happens at the scene. Need less say, the building isn't built on the desk but in its construction site.
I should work for the organization which employed me but I often feel I work for construction sites and people who work there. We are a team and they always wait for my instructions. So leaving there before the construction finish seems impossible. This idea seems unfair.

The construction site is real and it will take a period of time. On the other hand, I also think the words that recruiting agency says face the facts. I'm looking at many companies' and architect offices' histories. I think some of them are realistic for me and imagine scenes what I join their history. When I fall the job interview, I have to erase the memory that I look at the history of the company. I'm in various time and space. So
I sometimes feel like that I'm walking on the clouds. Where do I stand now? My head is spinning by the heat.

When I drove over the Seisho expressway, I passed away a flock of seagulls. There're so many seagulls. I thought they and the blue ocean are steady. They won't change.There is nothing like the beauty of summer season. I hope my struggle can end under the sun.