Confession

Can I be honest? I must be allowed. This website is mine, isn't it? I don't know who reads my journals. And I don't care people who don't express that they're reading.

It's difficult to behave like an adult. Sometimes behaving like an adult causes confused situation. When I have to get along with a person whom I cannot understand, or when I have tried to like a person but the person never realizes my effort and irritation. Moreover, when I know the person is friendly to me, even though I gave the idea up as hopeless, I'm confused. I think that I've only behaved like an adult and I was exhausted to try to like you. Can you understand?

When I learn something, I always want to see not only the teacher's technicality but also the personality. I want to like the teacher as a person. If I can find good points that I can admire, it'll make studying much easier for me. And I think people who teach something have to try to be liked. Talents and professionalism are not only the skill and knowledge about the profession. I don't want to pay for the misunderstanding that is rude, not intellectual and insolence. The money is what I earned as a result of efforts to improve myself professionally.

There're words and phrases.
He doesn't look like but his true nature is good.
She say everything what she's thinking, because she's innocent.
I don't like these ideas that a person hides his/her real nature and I don't have to believe what he/she shows. Is how we show an important part of our real nature? The presentation that is easy to understand is kindness.

What should I think when a person behaves rudely, awfully, or says something too negative? Does the person want to be frankly? When the person is in personal contact with me, I can understand. But in business relationship, it's impossible.
If the person thinks that he/she is so attractive that people won't care about the faults, it's his/her misunderstanding. I'm confused again. By any chance, does he/she want to be disliked by me? I don't want to dislike a person whom I meet and talk to. And I also don't want to be confused.

At least, I know that I was released from this suffering now. She must be lucky because she could leave before I exploded.

New Year begins.

Sad to say, my winter vacation is going to end. I went to a gym to make my body wake up. The gym is managed by the city where I live in. The fee is very low for the citizens of Hadano. And the gym doesn't charge people who don't live in this city a lot for use of it.
The building of the gym is new and cool. It takes only 10 minutes from my house.
The gym is just what I needed.

Some friends of mine tried to run a marathon last year. I admire them but I will never try it. It's difficult to understand for me why marathon is fun. But watching Ekiden race on TV, I thought I might feel good if I could run long distance.

A sweat did me good. After two hours excise, I became hungry and I got back home.
Fortunately, or unfortunately, the lunch is more gorgeous than usual because friends of my parents came. In these cases, I and my sister had to do our duty. We made cheese cake. I got the recipe from a friend of mine. It's really good recipe. The recipe for making this cake is easy and doesn't take a long time. We don't need special ingredients. And of course, the taste of it is so good.
I'm sure the calory that I took today is much higher than I used up calories in the gym.